Mistress (part 5, finale)

I need you, no more,

I am your dirty secret, no more,

I am your door mat, no more,

I am your punching bag, no more,

I have lost everything,

My sobriety,

My sanity,

My dignity,

My self respect,

Everything that made me me,

But I will find it all again,

I will be me again,

Without you,

I am moving on,

From you,

She might believe your lies,

But I never will again,

I am your dirty secret, no more,

I need you, no more.

Mistress (part 4)

Does she know my pain,

I found myself wondering,

Does your wife know,

What it's like,

To sit by the phone,

Waiting,

Just to hear your voice,

Beneath her perfect shell,

Does she too,

Wear the evidence of your love,

The welts,

The bruises,

The scars,

Is her heart pained,

When your in my bed,

Does she know the real you,

Or is that reserved for me,

Does she get the fantasy,

The house,

The kids,

The white picket fence,

Does she know it's all a facade,

I found myself wondering,

Does she know my pain?

Mistress (part 3)

I am numb,

I can no longer tell the difference,

Whispered I love you's,

Or screamed profanities,

Gentle caresses,

Or battering fists,

It used to hurt,

Either my body,

Or my heart,

I've kept my word,

I've not complained,

You've not seen on tear,

But the emptiness,

You leave behind,

When you return to her,

Was to much for me to bear,

That's when the ache sets in,

The bruises and tears,

Begin to surface,

So I have another drink,

Pop another pill,

Smoke another bowl,

Until I can no longer tell the difference,

 And everything I am in numb.

Mistress (part 2)

Please don't leave me,

I can be whatever you want me to be,

Your best friend, your lover,

Your submissive pet,

I am your blank canvas,

An unmolded block of clay,

Mold me into your perfection,

Make me your toy,

Your occasional play thing,

Your personal sex doll,

Dress me up, tie me up,

Gag me, whip me, bruise me,

Make me bleed,

Fill my every orifice,

With all you have to give,

Use me, berate me, dominate me,

I will fulfill your every fantasy,

Without hesitation,

Without complaint,

I will hide my tears behind a smile,
I will do whatever you want,

Just please don't leave me.

Mistress (part 1)

I spend my days waiting,

Anxiously, longingly waiting,

For a message,

A place, a time,

When you can finally slip away,

Out of her arms,

And into mine,

For an hour,

Maybe two,

Of sweet ecstasy,

I know you love me,

But our time is fleeting,

Gone to quickly,

I beg you for one more hour,

One more minute,

One more kiss,

One more assurance of your love,

As you pull away from me,

With unkept promises,

Of a life we'll never have,

To quickly you jump from my bed,

In search of hers to lay your head,

Once again leaving me waiting,

Anxiously, longingly waiting.