Repentance

I am lost in an abyss of loneliness,

Drowning in a river of my own self pity,

No one with whom to share my thoughts so shitty,

Am I forever lost in this world of darkness?

I ache for the sharpness of the blade,

My veins are screaming for the pleasurable pain,

I know I think these thoughts in vain,

I just wish I could make existence fade.

I despise my wandering eyes,

I am repulsed by my wandering lips,

My lover is where I'll find the truest of friendships,

Why do I push boundaries 'til one of us cries?

Thanks to my selfishness there's a lost baby,

Because of my excess, there's a lost soul,

In its place is a deep, dark hole,

Can one fill such a void? Maybe.

Until I find a way to make it okay,

I will sit to the side and pretend happiness,

Do my best to hide the inner blackness,

For my mistakes I must pay.